unconditional love?>?@!?#!#@?

i think this the wrong time and the wrong way of writing a blog...its .1:10am all i can write about is what happened yesterday(few hours back)LOL...whatever..

ahem...i woke up 11:47am, 20th of september ..thinking bout Sam.. My ex-girlfriend who's only 16..im quite guilty of letting her go off my hands..i wasted 1month of our relationship coz im addicted in playing Ragnarok..im always have an excuse for not going online(YM), not calling her, not texting her juz to have a full concentration on ragnarok..but when we talked about cutting our relationship off ithought it was a hard one...both of us agreed that we're not happy with each other..so we ended up as friends..i cant stop thinkin of her for the couple of weeks..i always reminisce bout our happy moments... then i got myself a new girlfriend..not actually a girlfriend..but we talked about everythin like a couple sharing each other's thoughts...we shared bout our past relationships..having sweet talks and everythin..i thought i moved on but im totally wrong..that time..Sam and i were having a friendly talk..kamustahan, asaran and stuffs..when she asks for help regarding her downelink pages...and photo editing.. everytime im chatting with her..i feel some chuva..butterflies in my tummy...feels like im in a rollercoaster ride..u know..that kind of feeling...it happens everytime we chat..i was thinkin...."Do i still love her??" "OMG love ko pa xa..asa pa ko"...too bad i got sick for 2 weeks...bcause of the weird weather d2 sa perlas ng silanganan..i had tonsilitis and viral infection...im not allowed to go online..

Last saturday i asked my friend Wanky bout this issue...we have the same prob.. i told Wanky.."isang sign lng wankz, for the long time na di kmi nkpg usap..pg ng-ol xa then xa ang unang pmnsin skin ..that means i22loy ko na mkpgblkan s knya"..e kc po..pg ol un ako una pmpnsin..minsan lng pmnsin un pg may klangan...her first word.."favor..." so that was the sign that i askd...days gone by..same old shit...then sept 19 afternoon..i was chattin with my friends..i didnt notice that she's online..im surprised when her PM window appears with a Doodle IMvironment..with a message "TUMZ!!!!!!!!!" (our makulit na twgan "tumz" when we're still on khit nman friends nlng kmi ganun prin..wakeke)..kmustahan...lam nio na un kung pano..(hehe) im trying not to give any attention to her..i closed her avatar without seeing it if she got a new pic...then she Buzzed me and askd "tumz, look mo pic ko..try mo nga i-copy ;))"...i was shocked..she askd me to copy her pic..i mean..she never askd me to do that..im the one who keeps on stealing her pics..i was like "OMG!!" then that's the time i remember my sign.."this is the sign...pm nia ko..then merong unusual na gnwa/cnbi" when i opend her avatar..i saw her pic..with her pretty and kissable lips, beautiful eyes and attractive nose..damn..pwde bang ibalik ung dati??..nung kami pa.. i was stunned..then i noticed myself smiling..i dunno why...my mom askd me "bkit ngiting aso ka jan??" it was like im the happiest person that time....Sam even askd me to open her accts..friendster,downelink and photobucket..OMG legal pa akong pmsok sa accts nia...after that small chit-chat we had..i started to share what i felt ..and what happend that time..im going gaga all night..i was inspired to make a simple collage..after i finished my piece of art..i showed it to my friends...and to keiki ofcourse :))..that sign will start another boring and corny chapter of my lovelife..

actually...im not really going to ask her if we could "take back our happy moments"...right now im starting a new friendship with her..i hope my sign wont let me down.. *sigh*



what do u think???